10:10 pm

The first step is knowing. Now I know a whole lot. It will get easier. The next one will be better. I'll be better. Hopefully the day will come soon when I laugh at all this. I'll laugh at the fact that I once wanted you. At the fact that I thought this was love. The more I open up I actually feel less vulnerable. Someone else might look at the situation and say I was stupid all along. Its OK. Its a lesson. U were around for a few seasons and I believe I learned the lesson im supposed to learn. Love is not blind. Love does not lead you into danger. Love does not breed life amongst darkness. Love doesn't mean losing or forgetting yourself. Love doesn't make you cry out of sadness over and over again. Love does not look you in the eye and speak anything less than what's in the heart. Love is however, joyful and while heatedly fulfilling without any tug of war.